May 18, 2011
Dear Jacob,
Time has passed by, but we still miss you so much. I still remember the day we found out we were going to have triplets. It was an unforgettable day filled with so many different emotions. We called our family and friends to let them know our exciting news. I don't think I slept at all that night.
In the pregnancy we discovered we were having
identical triplet boys; we both loved the name Jacob and decided to name "Baby A" Jacob, "Baby B" would be named Shane, and "Baby C" would be named Christopher.
Every week, we went to the doctor's office and heard your hearts beating--yours was
always the fastest. We had an ultrasound every other week; we saw all three of you moving around in my stomach. It was really incredible to feel and see all of you.
On May 18, 2010 at 5:52 PM you were born; Shane was born right after you, Christopher was born at 5:53 PM. It was magical to look at all of you; I felt so blessed to have three beautiful baby boys.
Because you were premature, you had to stay in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU) in Abington Memorial Hospital. You were all in seperate incubator; we would come and visit you everyday, from morning to night. It was a real trear to hold each of you, and on one of our visits we effectionatly named you "Benjamin Buttons!" You were wrinkly and so cute, like a little old man.
Even though you were all identical you had a different look than Shane and Christopher. I remember, you would stare at me with such love and I will never forget your eyes gazing into mine.
The night before you became ill, the doctors raved at how well you were all doing. Hesaid you were the star of the NICU. That night, I slept like a baby; I dreamed aout the day I could finally be able to take you three home.
The next day was Memorial Day. We went to visit you and your brothers in the hospital, when we arrived at the NICU in Abington, there were all of these bright lights surrounding you, and there were several people working on you. You looked pale, and weak. My heart dropped to my feet, I felt so helpless.
The doctors and nurses continued to work on you, but decided they needed to move you to Saint Christopher's Hospital for specialized care. We stayed by your bedside into the morning, it was then that they decided they needed to operate on you. They said you had NEC (Necrotizing Enterocolitis); they said they needed to see what was going on inside of you.
When the operation was over, the doctors came to us with the most horrible news. They said, they were unable to save you. Your internal organs had died. It was a nightmare; the sadness and emptiness I felt cannot be explained.
It has been almost a year since you have passed away, but I still feel your presence everyday. Shane and Christopher are getting so big. I know you are watching over them; making sure they are doing well. We missed seeing you play with your brothers Dylan, Shane, and Christopher. We missed celebrating the Holiday's with you. But, we really missed kissing, holding, and hugging our "Benjamin Buttons" on every ordinary day.
We will always love you and you will always be in our hearts.
Love,
Mommy, Daddy, Dylan, Shane, and Christopher
